in the dark

The best (newly discovered) podcast I’ve listened to throughout 2019 (and, to be precise, in the end of 2018 already as well) has been In the Dark by American Public Media.
In the Dark is an investigative podcast that reports on a different case each season. The second season deals with the case of Curtis Flowers: ”Curtis Flowers has been tried six times for the same crime.

Another thing

Another thing I managed to accomplish (which might seem small, but it did a lot for me) is ban my phone from my bed. No more scrolling before getting up or going to sleep. Highly recommend!

Some weird ”I don’t deserve happiness and the best of the best” kind of thinking that seems to be ingrained in my mind makes me believe that, since I had quite a good year, the next is probably going to be not so good. Just for balance’s sake and to keep me humble. I might have come to that ~ logic ~ because in the past couple of years, whenever I felt safe and good about my life, something horrible was waiting around the next corner. Life will always have its ups and downs, but … could we possibly steer clear of the major, existential, life-and-death type of catastrophes? Please? 



Looking back 2019

2019 has been a good year for me. I feel lucky and grateful and also proud. There have been a lot of firsts and I did quite a few things that scared me and would have been easy to avoid or wiggle out of, but instead I just did them anyway. And, as so often the case, they turned out not be so scary after all.

I feel lucky and grateful because I was able to do quite a bit of traveling this year. For work as well as for pleasure. Turns out, spending money on experiences makes me much happier than spending money on ~ things ~ . Again, not surprising at all, I know.